JOURNEY THROUGH LIFE MELODIES

B A C K T O T H E B E G I N N I N G

2012-01-13T23:35:00.002+08:00

I've no idea when was the last time I actually wrote something here, but as I was surfing the net earlier, I had a strong urge to get this blog activated and here I am , right now, writing once again. I have not been writing for the longest time. More especially after my resignation from NTV7. But it's all good, life's been good to me. Praise the Lord.

I've been thinking exceptionally much lately and one thing that crossed my mind was 'Crying'. I never had the habit to cry when I watch sad movies, be it in the cinema or at the comfort of my home. I would not cry for any hard times faced anywhere.. eg: work, out of work..etc? It is ALMOST impossible for me to even drop a tear now. At least not for any emotional-related issues.

I believe crying will not solve anything, nor will feeling bad and sorry for yourself change the situation. I've noticed how some people find pleasure indulging themselves in negative emotions, ( which I sometimes do too ). However, the wise me will drop a reminder that these 'depression-related' feelings will only slow me down. And most of the time,I'd choose to move on fast.

Now.. how funny it is that one of the struggles I'm facing is to release pent-up feelings. I do agree that shedding tears can be a huge and very healthy emotional release, particularly if one is experiencing deep pain, sadness, anger or stress. But to me, the question is... HOW DO I CRY?

I could not tear for anything except for family-related issues now. I could not cry even after giving myself hundred reasons to execute it. haha! Sometimes I do question myself, have I used up my tear limit 5 years ago? What happened back in half a decade ago? Stay tuned for my next entry ;)

Love,

Ai Lee

T E A R S

2009-06-22T01:42:00.009+08:00

It was a great sermon preached by Keith today...
It really touches my heart...
When Keith was delivering the message, I was reminiscing  my childhood... All the sacrifices my parents have made to bring up this girl....

I wept till my make up smeared ...* Shhhhhh *
But i'm glad I attended the service today.. and sent the SMS to my dad after Keith asked the congregations to do so... My dad indeed, was happy to receive a lovely message from his rebellious daughter =)

I received a very lovely message from my so-called bro, Michael today.. He was sitting behind me throughout the whole service, and even after the service ended, he was standing there, offering his presence for his sister who was still crying on Denise's shoulder.... Awwww... 

Here is the content of the message:

  " Good to see you indeed Sis : ) God loves us so much. You can lay down your sorrow in His unfailing love safely. Tears is His gift. Happy Father's day. "  

 21- Jun- 09   1.58pm.  

PATRIOCTIC SONG

2009-06-01T15:27:00.008+08:00

OK... this song so happen to cross my mind when I was working this afternoon.... *W E I R D*....
BUt it reminds me of the good old days though... back in high school......times where I used to always yawn during assembly every morning .. BUT feels really bersemangat when it comes to singing all the patriotic songs..! =) Good thing I love singing or I would have slept through during every morning assemblies.. * grins *

'Aman makmur damai sejahtera

Akan ku junjung dan ku jaga

Bersatu rela jujur setia

Membela bangsa tercinta

Syukur ku selalu kepada Ilahi

Atas segala rahmatnya

Malaysiaku, negara maju jaya

Baktiku hanya untukmu.'

P O S S I B I L I T Y

2009-05-30T01:00:00.007+08:00

Everytime I look at you
I wish you looked my way
And flash me that dazzling smile that
Really makes my day
But of course it's just a dream
A dream that won't come true
And for unrequited love I wrote this song for you

I always think of how it'd be
If we were together
You and me holding hands
It's a dream..
I can picture it right now
You and me,
It's a dream,
It's a possibility...

When I look out of my window
I hope you look up at me
If only you could read my heart
My love so true you'd see
How empty my life would be
If I don't have you
And for unrequited love I wrote this song for you...
..it's a dream...
it's a Possibility...

WILL IT ONLY BE A DREAM? OR WILL IT COME TRUE ?. . . .

DREAM 1

2009-05-20T00:02:00.001+08:00

I had an unpleasant dream last night... Not too sure if I should share it with you guys... It's pretty scary though.. At least to me.. And i only remember the last bit of it.... ANyways, as promised..here's a glimpse of my dream...

It was dark and ominous... in a forest, located next to the sea..... A mother was suspiciously walking through the forest and out towards a boat which is tied to the dock... She struggled to stretch her hand to grab the black guitar bag from the boat....

It seemed like something's hidden inside the bag... Something which the mother would want to get rid of....

She quickly walked back into the forest with the guitar bag tightly held in her hand... As she walked , she saw her son and she stopped ... Her heart was pounding fast.. She turned and walked to the opposite direction....hoping that her son will not see her ...

Little did she know the more she tried to escape...the nearer is she heading towards the gate of death....

That's all can be revealed about my dream

Will hope for a better one tonight.. Or perhaps.. a break tonight.

TAZ~

Just minutes after publishing this post, I found this from Mr. Google.. Check it out:

1st Blog's DREAM

2009-05-19T01:26:00.001+08:00

Finally..... I've started a blog ... Welll..... years of plain talking.. without action.. But not anymore ..

For a start up, I'm not going to write a long one.. As I'm heading off to bed real soon, just a brief introduction from me the newbie

First of all......WHy is the title of this post ' 1st Blog's DREAM' ? well... As the matter of fact, I can dream 365 days a year without fail.... I can dream during a 20 min nap, or even a 2 sec nap.. Unbelievable?? BELIEVE IT! haha..

And since my brain has been dreaming actively.. well.. I guess it would be a great idea to share some of my interesting dreams to all of you. Probably there are great stories to tell *grins*

I'm hoping for a great dream tonight in order for me to share my FIRST dream with all of you

Well... Here is a nice picture to look at before ending the night.. ANd yeah.. I'm a PUrplE Lover..

MOre to come! TAZ~!